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Monsters With Moustaches

by Tarquin Alexandra

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1.
Prelude 00:49
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It seems you've found yourself in quite a situation (Quite a situation) Oh if only you just had a little patience (Had a little patience) If the world's a stage, then life's a circus and you're up next (Circle, gather round to see) All gather round to see the freak escape the shipwreck Go on keep begging, pleading "Ringmaster, set me free!" The crowd is cheering and you're begging on your knees Is this a dream? Another handshake with the devil? (Dreaming of the devil, wake) Just wake me up before I get too sentimental Oh-oh-oh
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Vanity 03:23
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I just wanna be loved Don't tell me "I told you, I told you" That solitude is not enough My mom's got a friend And sometimes she tells me, she tells me About her life, she calls my bluff She says she was raised by burlesque dancers Monsters with moustaches, darling I tell her that's the dream One man's trash is another one's fantasy But it don't come that easily Everything is vanity I don't know how to tell you what it does to me And all I see is emerald green While I'm wading through this shallow sea Oh now my vision is skewed I don't need another reminder "The spotlight, it's just not for you" But passion persists So bitch and moan 'bout your college degree, oh! But I just don't have time for it I wish I was raised by burlesque dancers Monsters with moustaches, darling Don't you know that's the dream? One man's trash is another one's fantasy But it don't come that easily Everything is vanity I don't know how to tell you what it does to me And all I see is emerald green While I'm wading through this shallow sea Drag me by the hand and set me free Safety never was a guarantee Ready? On the count of three All that's left of me will be debris I'm quaking in my thigh high boots The things that I would do for you And vanity is all I see But to share myself is all I need Make you feel the way I do Don't you know I'd sell my soul for you? I'm quaking in my thigh high boots Aaah, aaah, aaah Everything is vanity I don't know how to tell you what it does to me And all I see is emerald green While I'm wading through this shallow sea Drag me by the hand and set me free Safety never was a guarantee Ready? On the count of three All that's left of me will be debris Cause everything is vanity Vanity
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Daisy 04:19
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She's got a butterscotch whiskey in one hand She needs the other one to hang herself with She wouldn't tell you she'd never commit though She likes to hold it over your head In her spare time she makes daisy chains to wrap around my neck Pull 'em tight 'till I can't see Now she's alive, and I am (breath) Let (let, let, let) Let the light in That's what they tell me It's wearing me thin Let (let, let, let) Let the light in That's what they tell me But I don't believe them Her grip is strong and she'll hold you for hostage She's got me in the palm of her hand Cause stable ground is uneasy on a good day So I like to keep my head in the sand In her spare time she makes daisy chains to wrap around my neck Pull 'em tight 'till I can't see Now she's alive, and I am (breath) Let (let, let, let) Let the light in That's what they tell me It's wearing me thin Let (let, let, let) Let the light in That's what they tell me But I don't believe them They inspected me from head to toe They said I'm like the rest But I don't trust a word they say Maybe I should run away Inspected me from head to toe They said I'm like the rest But I don't trust a word they say Maybe I should run away (Maybe I should run away) Let (let, let, let) Let the light in That's what they tell me It's wearing me thin Let (let, let, let) Let the light in That's what they tell me But I don't believe them They inspected me from head to toe (Let, let the light in) They said I'm like the rest (That's what they tell me) But I don't trust a word they say (It's wearing me thin) Maybe I should run away Inspected me from head to toe (Let, let the light in) They said I'm like the rest (That's what they tell me) But I don't trust a word they say (But I don't believe them) Maybe I should run away
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Bad Habits 03:57
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I guess I ate my words I'm just a creature of habit I'd like to spit them out But they burn like acid I'll hold my own hand Like a lonely planet Can't help but look at you (I can't help but look at you) In your bomber jacket Guilt like confetti falls from the sky What a bad party Just make me different Buy me a drink You're my achilles heel Guilt like confetti falls from the sky What a bad party Just make me different Buy me a drink You're my achilles heel Bad habits I do it all the time I guess I never learn from my mistakes Cause I'm still at it I'll never get what's mine If only you were here to save the day Oh here I go again I'll savour it while I have it Cause nothing good lasts long The takeaway from the battle Bottle my hopes and dreams And throw them into the ocean I hope they drown at sea Cause that's Pandora's potion Guilt like confetti falls from the sky What a bad party Just make me different Buy me a drink You're my achilles heel Guilt like confetti falls from the sky What a bad party Just make me different Buy me a drink You're my achilles heel Bad habits I do it all the time I guess I never learn from my mistakes Cause I'm still at it I'll never get what's mine If only you were here to save the day Bad habits Guilt like confetti falls from the sky (Falls from the sky) What a bad party Just make me different Buy me a drink You're my achilles heel Guilt like confetti falls from the sky (Falls from the sky) What a bad party Just make me different Buy me a drink You're my achilles heel Bad habits I do it all the time I guess I never learn from my mistakes Cause I'm still at it I'll never get what's mine If only you were here to save the day Bad habits (Guilt like confetti falls from the sky) (Ah-ah-ah) Bad habits (Just make me different, buy me a drink) (Ah-ah-ah) Bad habits (Guilt like confetti falls from the sky) (Ah-ah-ah) Bad habits (Just make me different, buy me a drink) (Ah-ah-ah) Bad habits
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Hostess Of Memory 04:10
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Hug me and tell me you don't wanna go Your skin is thin ice but I've seen through your soul I wouldn't go back after all that I've learned But I can't ignore the heart shattering yearn Mmmmm Mmmmm Toxic, but I miss the thrill you overthrew Safer, but I'm looking for something to do Can't say I miss you now all these years passed I've got better things for my heart to combat Ohhhhh Ohhhhh Oh, I don't want to admit that I'm better off Happier without the heartache I can't stand being told that I was wrong Lessons better learned by partake Ignoring better friends 'cause they Don't make stories to be told during old age Just a poor excuse, covered tracks, that I'm bored of mundane And I can't make good friends stay Took another subway line just to see you Walking home alone at night, over the moon Took me seven years, but I'd got a clear view Just for you to shatter it What did I do? Mmmmm Mmmmm Walking through the cars at all hours of the night Life I'd always wanted in front of my eyes Just like in the movies, but nothing good stays I hope you took a piece of me just to replay Ahhhhh Ahhhhh Oh, I don't want to admit that I'm better off Happier without the heartache I can't stand being told that I was wrong Lessons better learned by partake Ignoring better friends 'cause they Don't make stories to be told during old age Just a poor excuse, covered tracks, that I'm bored of mundane And I can't make good friends stay The life that I want Just on the precipice Go back and then forth No space for residents to stay too long I'm just a hostess for memories to fester until they're gone
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You Don't Tell Me Anything 04:09
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You don't tell me anything, anything You don't tell me anything, anything You got me wrapped around your finger like a ring But darling, you don't tell me anything, anything People All they see is paper Numbers on your neighbours Stamps on your wall Savior You're your own dictator All we are is nature Compostable I don't expect it to be perfect But I was hoping for a couple chances And I would try to resurrect it I don't expect it to be perfect You don't tell me anything, anything You don't tell me anything, anything You got me wrapped around your finger like a ring But darling, you don't tell me anything, anything At all Pressure Breathe in the aroma Go get your diploma Acceptable Fuck that Move to Arizona Drink some Coca-Cola Respectable I don't expect it to be perfect But I was hoping for a couple chances And I would try to resurrect it But maybe love is just a burnt out candle So lay me slowly in the hot wax Won't even bother taking off my glasses Cause I surrender to the slow death I don't expect it to be perfect You don't tell me anything, anything You don't tell me anything, anything You got me wrapped around your finger like a ring But darling, you don't tell me anything, anything At all I feel like I'm talking to a stranger I'm talking to I feel like I'm talking to a stranger I'm talking to I feel like I'm talking to a stranger I feel like I'm talking to a stranger I feel like I'm talking to a stranger I'm talking to I feel like I'm talking to a stranger I'm talking to I feel like I'm talking to a stranger I'm talking to I feel like I'm talking to a stranger You don't tell me anything, anything You don't tell me anything, anything You got me wrapped around your finger like a ring But darling, you don't tell me anything, anything You don't tell me anything, anything You don't tell me anything, anything You got me wrapped around your finger like a ring But darling, you don't tell me anything, anything At all I feel like I'm talking to a stranger I'm talking to I feel like I'm talking to a stranger I'm talking to I feel like I'm talking to a stranger I'm talking to I feel like I'm talking to a stranger
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Interlude 01:41
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For fear of misbehaving To call my bluff again I'm craving to touch the waves of release Don't wanna fall too far I'll stay knee deep Mmm Mmm Mmm Ahhh Ahhh Ahhh So push me in, see if I'll float (See if I'll fall far) But I've gone too far, too fast Now there's no hope To care is not to be blame free (Blame me for my mind) But I've got a fragile mind, so don't blame me) Mmm Mmm Mmm Ahhh Ahhh Ahhh Mmm Mmm Mmm Ahhh Ahhh Ahhh
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Serpentine 03:29
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High A goddess in my twisted mind Never fears Never follows in time Mine Not for long, just an inch in a mile Watch your gaze going out with the tide Strung tight Hung up I'm so in love Holding on, every word that you say, babe Serpentine Snuck your way into my mind I'm hooked, you are my Aphrodite Left me hanging Serpentine Holding onto memories I made up in my head Won't sleep a wink without my serpentine Wait Now I'm guilt ridden Running away Never said what I wanted to say Wrong I know I'm coming on too strong But you set quite the precedent, early on Strung tight Hung up I'm so in love Holding on, every word that you say, babe Strung tight Hung up I'm so in love Holding on, every word that you say, babe Serpentine Snuck your way into my mind I'm hooked, you are my Aphrodite Left me hanging Serpentine Holding onto memories I made up in my head Won't sleep a wink without my serpentine Ahhh Ah-ah-ah Ahhh Ah-ah-ah Holding onto memories I made up in my head You are my favourite lullaby and I will love you 'till you're dead Won't sleep a wink without my Serpentine Snuck your way into my mind I'm hooked, you are my Aphrodite Left me hanging Serpentine Holding onto memories I made up in my head Won't sleep a wink without my serpentine
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Poison 04:01
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It's inevitable People grow and people change Familiarity estranged Sometimes I wish that I could chain you to a wall And keep you only just for me Just like the way It used to be And you could keep me company With happiness a guarantee within these walls We could play board games (Don't you love a board game?) Or watch the sunrise (It'll be pretty) Through the one way window that I had customized (I went through a lot for this) We'd talk about our dreams Our dreams that won't come true (But that's okay) We'd watch our bodies rot away just me and you (How romantic!) Poison It's who I am It's what I do Tastes just like honey But it'll stick to you like glue You might forget me But I'll always remember you I think I poisoned me too It's just a matter of time Before you start to tire of me But lucky us I thought this through And I just slipped it in your food Now we're suspended in the air (Air) Above a world that's all our own (All our own) But what goes up, it must come down (Down) So I must take you from your throne We don't play board games (But we have so much fun!) Or watch the sunrise (Not romantic) You smashed the one way window that I had customized (Do you know how much that cost?) I still know all your dreams Your dreams that will come true (But will mine? Nope) I'll watch my body rot away without you Poison It's who I am It's what I do Tastes just like honey But it'll stick to you like glue You might forget me But I'll always remember you I think I poisoned me too How naive to think that love was something I could attain To hold it in my hands Slipped through my fragile brain That I'm just skin and bone I've nothing new to say Just leave me on the floor like a forgotten stain (Just leave me on the floor like a forgotten stain) Poison It's who I am It's what I do Tastes just like honey But it'll stick to you like glue You might forget me But I'll always remember you I think I poisoned me too
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Love Me Not 04:29
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Take me to a doctor There's something wrong Cause I can feel my heart pounding through my top It's been all of 20 hours in this state Put your hand on my chest and don't tell me it's in my brain I get so obsessive I'm craving attention My heart rate is elevating And I fit myself into every situation Until I'm exasperated Don't know what I expected from myself Another tug of war won and lost Oh what makes you feel so compelled? Life is just sleep darling And sex and death So really what's it matter if I rot away in bed? Sometimes I don't feel safe in society Wronged by the riot inside my head I don't know how to act around my friends Every road that I take leads me back to bed Love me not Love me in secret Leave me Enter at your own risk Don't get caught Best to forget me Just a thought A memory Just Love me not I need another doctor I'm in denial Forever is a long time to be on the line Oh I need another doctor Can you put me through Someone help me out I don't know what to do Love me not Love me in secret Leave me Enter at your own risk Don't get caught Best to forget me Just a thought A memory Just Love me not Love me in secret Leave me Enter at your own risk Don't get caught Best to forget me Just a thought A memory Just Love me not
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Remember 04:08
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Why do I always end up the enemy in my mind? Racing with fear and jealousy How are you laughing and smiling so easily? Every day playing pretend takes it out of me I just want to feel that thrill For the first time I don't wanna die Still I'm never satisfied Can't see eye to eye for the life of me And I'll tell you how I feel inside But your mind is occupied There's more important things to do than pity me Sometimes I don't even give them the time of day I'm just passing time until I can say what I wanna say It's a state of mind I feed off of you and I need it to breathe For the first time I don't wanna die Still I'm never satisfied Can't see eye to eye for the life of me And I'll tell you how I feel inside But your mind is occupied There's more important things to do than pity me Never have I lived so hard Never have I loved so much Never have I crashed so low Never has my heart just thud Never have I hurt so much Never have I cried so long Never have I felt so high Never was my trust so strong Remember Do you remember what you started? Remember how you tore me apart when we parted? Remember Remember singing out my name Thought I'd never feel like that Thought I'd never love again Remember The promises they said you'd break Warnings I ignored cause you didn't make me feel insane Remember I couldn't bring myself to breathe The years I went without 'cause I thought that I had everything Remember Remember Remember Remember Remember Remember
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Finale 01:16
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You Took a photo And then You threw it away I I'll always remember The memories you don't wanna save You Took a shot of my soul You took it away I turned into a monster And a monster that I stayed

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Monsters With Moustaches as a whole is seen through a lens of mental illness and the consequent effect that it has on various parts of one’s life. In its essence, it’s about duality; one thing not being able to exist without another, several conflicting truths coexisting in trauma.
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Thematically this album also explores loss of self through a sonically contrasting soundscape. Monsters With Moustaches claims the circus as its own, when the seemingly friendly carnival roundabouts during the day turn to shadows at night.

From the loneliness that societal pressures can create when left to fester inside your mind, to your worst fears feeling as though they exist as another person following you around, and the process of healing and accepting your past monsters becoming a part of who your future self will always be.

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released April 17, 2020

Prelude, Vanity, Daisy, Bad Habits, Hostess Of Memory, You Don't Tell Me Anything, Interlude, Serpentine, Poison, Love Me Not, Remember, Finale written and performed by Tarquin Alexandra
Guitar, Bass, Drums, Piano performed by Guillermo Subauste
Produced, mixed, and mastered by Guillermo Subauste

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With a satirical yet contemplative tone, Canadian independent singer-songwriter Tarquin Alexandra explores the masochism of life and the medical profession through intricate and introspective lyrics. Tarquin pulls from her experiences with both chronic and mental illness through existential infused indie pop. ... more

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